WONDERS of HAZELNUT. ♥

"Like a lamb to the slaughter": Something that you say about someone who goes somewhere calmly, not knowing that something unpleasant is going to happen. (c) Wonder, RJ Palacio All I wanted was happiness. I don't know why you have that guts to hurt me like this, to make me feel the pain I am having right now. This are all my choices. Well, maybe I can still manage, hopefully I will. I am still trying to be strong enough for myself.  But why? What's the answer to all the questions I have. Yes, I am trying to believe that you don't love me anymore, or maybe you didn't. Because someone who loves somebody would not do something like what you did. But if you really didn't, why? Please let me understand. Please. Do I look stupid now? Are you happy now? Srry.

It may be as desperate as it sounds, but nobody cares, I no longer care about what others would say. This is when you can say, it was love, that you really love him because you are hurting too much. That although you know you look stupid, you just don't care because you want him to stay.

I no longer want to think about the things he did. I no longer want to blame myself for being dragged into a situation like this. I just want to be back to my normal days. Where I was satisfied being with my friends, eating ice cream, reading books, travelling and other things which doesn't include guys who would later on leave you. They are so temporary and I am quite hating myself for being bitter about it but I guess and hope that things will get better soon. If only I could manipulate time and fast forward everything. I know deep inside me though it was in a very short period of time, I lost control of myself, I got attached so much that I  really am hurting that it hurts to believe that I no longer have him to hold by my side. Everything that happened, having him in my life, allowing him to be part of it was not one of my plans, But then *cries*