WONDERS of HAZELNUT. ♥

When it's all heavy on the inside, I just wanna flow all the tears out, hoping that something would work, hoping that all the negative energy would flow out with the tears. Or maybe when things get a little better, I'd go out there and let the the ocean and the wind and as the sun set remind me that some things will end and it will be another beginning, a beginning of much better days because I went through all those rough days fighting every single sh*t to survive.

Well they say, when people won't respond to you, try to think about what situation they are in also during those times. Try to understand that your friend also has her own world with problems and current challenges she's dealing with, but I guess somehow we should also normalize that we have to say something like "right now is not a good time" or "I am doing something" or I don't know just to help also your friend to stop thinking about if they even matter to you. I'm saying this right now beacuse I am pondering about when should you consider that your friend or anybody else is just simply ignoring you at that moment? Because I am trying to create a line with myself where I have to encourage me to just stop creating bridge among people who just want to create walls between you. It's tiring to reconnect with people you care about but wants to deconnect without saying anything. I think this is very unhealthy.

Today's my second day as a 3rd yr med student. Somehow, a bit tiring because everyday is whole day class but what I'm gonna write about is not pertaining to what happened to one of my class but a cute story that happened while I was having my lunch. Here in Vigan, we have a small sari-sari store, we usually sell breakfast and lunch and there's this medyo lolo with down syndrome (maybe around late 30's to 40s age) whose part of his routine is to have some snacks here at our house. He would always buy pepsi and sometimes some meryenda. I would sometimes see him roaming around asking for money (but my lola's friend mentioned before that's somehow they're not really poor) and what he's doing is just really part of his "routine." I don't know, I don't really have any idea about what happens in his life but now I'm curious. So going back, everytime I have the chance to see him, I try to have small conversations with him like did he alre...