WONDERS of HAZELNUT. ♥

I actually missed being around kids, the anxieties I have right now was not there whenever I am around them so I guess all that I have to do right now is to get this over with so that I can go back to where I am supposed to be right? Do you think I will pursue pedia later on? Only time will tell. I may say I want other things right now but I guess my heart will always find its way home with the kids. I miss Pedya Kamp and the energy I had when I started volunteering. I hope one day, I can go back and continue. Love, stop looking for love in other people. Find it first within you. Be yourself. Love yourself. I keep telling you this. But how many more times do I have to whisper it to you for you to realize that it is where happiness would begin before you can radiate it to others? In time, everything will all be worth it and okay. Keep believing and trusting the process even with all the doubts. Stay strong, love. I gotchu! Love, Hizilnut

it was actually nice. okay i will leave it with that word because it should end there. no expectations because it would just hurt you hazelnut. its way too fast, and thats not you, thats not what you want yourself to be even though you've been like that. but im writing here just to remind myself to stop and thank him for being around. I feel it way behind me that this one is over and he is never gonna really like pursue me or anything serious, just something fun or casual from what people would say but im not a casual person so i need to stop and just wait for the right time and focus on what you're gonna do hazel. thats enough distraction. "stop choosing what isn't choosing you, let the good times be good times and let yourself move forward when its over."

Today is a reminder that you're not ready, okay? Not yet or never again? Prioritize yourself first hizil and everything else will follow. No more additional traumas, please.

Good morning not so strannge place with memories. And so they say, do not associate places and things with memories but how can I forget? I have learned things the hard way for the past few months and it's my testament to say that time somehow will help us heal. Slowly slowly but surely. We just have to create new memories to associate with it again, it may not be as easy as it sounds but it's possible hizil. You love creating memories, so create so much more, okay? It's my first day here in Baguio and here's to more days of staying here. I pray that my heart heals from all the burden it holds. This secret blog diary have seen me through different phases of life, mostly pag heartbroken hahaha thank you for being a place where i can share things comfortably without worrying. This is a place where I sometimes end up laughing about what happened to me and how it had change me to be the person I am today. Been a month since you finished internship, you've went to vigan...