WONDERS of HAZELNUT. ♥

Most of the time at this time of the night or morning because its two am, my thoughts are very messy that I only end up sighing, whispering myself this words repeatedly, saying "kaya ko to" because this world is tiring, people are tiring. I get tired with my own thoughts. I get tired with the questions and the doubts, especially right now, that I even question my existence, the existence of everything around me. And it feels lonely having this thoughts and not knowing who to share because everyone's busy with their own demons and this life and I don't wanna bother them anymore, so again for tonight, we continue whispering to ourselves, keep going self. 

Have you ever felt empty? Like you don't know how to explain the kind of sad you're experiencing. Its just that you're sad and too lazy to think of the reasons why you're sad but you know there's a lot and it feels empty.

Hindi ba weird how you're in a position wherein you slowly see people growing apart from you, you guys used to be close but you're slowly seeing them replace you with other people? It's weird right how much I train myself to be independent and alone, but yet still find myself weary of becoming alone. I still wait for them to invite me, to ask for me to come.  OR WAIT. I'm thinking of ways how to help myself understand this perspective of my life. Because I haven't felt this before yet. Manila taught me not to care when I'm just alone, I go out alone most of the time there though I met a lot of people. Its like going out alone was always an adventure I look forward to every time, even by just traveling alone or seating alone in a restaurant. OR even watching movie alone (char on this one, this is one of the saddest adventure I did) but I did this before to shoo away the noises, I was frustrated that time and going inside the cinema was the only thing I taught wou...