GROW UP SELF!

Hindi ba weird how you're in a position wherein you slowly see people growing apart from you, you guys used to be close but you're slowly seeing them replace you with other people? It's weird right how much I train myself to be independent and alone, but yet still find myself weary of becoming alone. I still wait for them to invite me, to ask for me to come. 

OR WAIT. I'm thinking of ways how to help myself understand this perspective of my life. Because I haven't felt this before yet. Manila taught me not to care when I'm just alone, I go out alone most of the time there though I met a lot of people. Its like going out alone was always an adventure I look forward to every time, even by just traveling alone or seating alone in a restaurant. OR even watching movie alone (char on this one, this is one of the saddest adventure I did) but I did this before to shoo away the noises, I was frustrated that time and going inside the cinema was the only thing I taught would comfort me. Pero tbh, I forgot what that reason was, all I know now is sobrang down ko nun.

But going back, Vigan right now feels so small. And yes I am at the age of adulting wherein all my friends are busy building up their life, their relationship. Already settling in, working or many other things their busy with. And here I am, sometimes I feel stuck. Not being able to go back on my adventures and randomly talking to different people. And all I can think of is that I wanna go out with friends, catch up ganun. I feel left out. And its sad. This is just a point in my life. We'll get through this, self. Just study and find other ways to entertain yourself. Grow up girl!! Recently, I've been starting to learn some piano stuffs.