Trying Hard to be an Independent Biatch!!!!

Yes, countless times, I have always tried hard to be independent. I may say it can be considered as forced training to be independent at times because of the situations I have. Most of the time I complain, complain to myself. Do stuffs like this, talk it out with myself just to let all those emotions burst out. How can we say life is unfair? Well I guess, there is no certain criteria where life would really be considered as fair. At the end of the day, you live where you are deciding what to do on how to re-route or change your situation to some stuffs you are eyeing on to be in the future. It was always a continuous battle with my mind on how to be better, on how to improve, on what to do just to keep going and living. Felt countless times that I am alone during my deepest and lowest moments but forced myself to see things in another light, it is an endless reminder to myself that there are still other things that I must be thankful for, to find those little itsy bitsy things to consider as blessings, to appreciate the people that never left, that I just met along the way, the experiences given by people who hurt me. Your point of view matters the most, your perspective, your mindset, how you see things and form conclusions. Just to be clear, I have a lot of negative conclusions, almost always. Why am I writing this? Because I was hurt. HAHHAHAHHA yes, by a person I had so much expectations ever since I existed I guess, even in my deepest unconcious thoughts, I always hope and been disappointed so many many times. And now, I am doing this just to randomly remind myself that you can do better, stop expecting because gurl, you're already 25 Biatch!!! You can survive!! Stop hurting yourself from the disappointments of false hopes and failed expectations. Continue with just appreciating the little things he does to cope up, but don't expect because from the looks of it, it's just gonna be this way for now. Maybe just hope for a better relationship but in terms of support, you do you, okay? help yourself be an independent biatch, as you were always trained. And PS: Happy Women's day to the best three women in my life, my mama, my lola and my Angel Tita Nelly!!! Love you from the bottom of my heart. I am me because of all your love!!