WONDERS of HAZELNUT. ♥

To my guardian angel, Its been more than a decade of not being with you, and you, celebrating your day in heaven. I still celebrate your existence in my life and remember you so many times. I wrote a lot of letters for you and I'm sorry a lot of it talks about struggles and surviving but you kept me going. So today, I look back again on our memories that continues to guide me to want to be a better person because I saw you try and try to become a bigger person. Always helping. Always loving. Happy birthday in heaven Tita. Your prayers for me are still here, because I am still here. I went to church this morning, Tita, like every other sunday. May nakatabi ako na lola and her apo and I remembered you and how we were like that before, napangiti nalang ako when I heard the apo say na punta daw sila mamaya sa playground sa plaza. And yes that was me also, na magswiswing for 5-10 mins bago umuwi + jollibee with kiddie meals hahahha kaya mas gusto ko dati sa Cathedral nagsisimba com...

I am here to say I'm happy you're trying, you're taking your healing seriously. And it's okay to choose yourself multiple times. If you lost people in the middle of searching for your peace, it will be okay. It may hurt now, I know you miss them so much. I know how much you value your relationship and how toxic your attachment issue can be. But please know, there's nothing wrong with feeling deeply for people you like. And I know there's something wrong with you isolating yourself, but slowly, you will get better at handling your relationship whether it be friends or family. You will be okay. I'm proud of how you're trying to be aware of your emotions. Takes time, so be gentle and patient with yourself. We're done with midterms, and you finished it without breaking down. And whatever your score may be, let this be something to push you more and prepare more. Pray, okay? For courage and peace. Someday, it won't be heavy anymore. And I'll be ...

Hello love, PAPAPSA KA!!! Yes, i came here just to say that because I trust in you, with all the 28 yrs old younger version of you, we trust in you. And regardless of whatever is happening around you, I will always root for you. From yourself, love, hezelnut chocnut nabaliw na palagi. K bye. Papasa ka!

I'm sorry for cutting people every time right now because I'm scared of my emotions that they would not know how to handle because I don't know how to handle it myself. So instead we just choose not to bother people. Just breathe, okay? Inhale exhale. I know its funny to think of this because of the ovewhelming emotions, but this too shall pass. Still hoping for good days ahead, someday. Someday. Love, hezelnut not wanting to give up kahit gusto na.

hi love, i know this is random but you deserve the love you want. never settle for anything less just because you're afraid you would have no one. malulungkot ka lang lalo in the end. stay strong, okay? gotchu and love you, always. love, hezelnut chocnut

Hello love, First of all and not last hahahhajk happy birthday to you, I know a lot of things happened again, a lot of struggles but hey,I am always proud that you're here showing up for you. I know there are so many times that you're choosing to dwell on doubting yourself, but I am still proud that you still choose to show up and that takes a lot of courage so even though you feel sometimes that no one's there for you, I will try my best to hug you and comfort you and still support you with all the whispers I have reserved for those times. I know it's real but don't let those negative whispers and overthinking invade your mind. You are in control, love. You are growing. I know that. You have been hurt and of course, please also accept the fact that even though it was not intentional, you have also hurt them. In time, I hope everything falls into place but regardless, choose to forgive, choose to be more kind, choose to let go of the pain. Do not let it consume yo...