WONDERS of HAZELNUT. ♥

Hi Kyle, To be honest, it is you, it was you that I can only consider as my guy best friend, my real guy best friend. I don't know why, I won't blame life. Its reality that life is not fair and reality also that there are no permanent things, people in life. Everyone's temporary but at most I thought that in the relationship that we share, our friendship was something I can hope that could last a lifetime, something that would last long but then it did not. I don't want this to be another reason for me to not believe that someday there would be someone that will stay, very long, that there would be someone that will truly love me the way I deserve to be loved. I am talking about all the forms of love you can think, family, friends, lovers, strangers, whatever. But right now, I am in constant of having faith that even though people are not consistent in my life. I will have God beside me. I am really feeling frustrated of the lost friendship. It was something special...

I am here, again and again. Its almost the end of the semester and I guess this semester was one of the dullest yet weirdest, I don't know why. It's like I know that there are some things, many things that happened yet I don't feel anything. Everything that happened is trying to force me to feel nothing. I have guarded myself with high wall against all people. I am scared of feeling hurt again, so I am always trying to push people away from me. And no one dares to stay and I guess that's just fine because its the reason why I am still here within my comfort zone. I know, I am knowledgeable of all thing wrong mindset I have. Believe me, I am trying to change myself for the better but I am trying to do it step by step. I know that everything that comes easy, will go easily as well. I am trying to learn to love myself. Its kinda weird that at this point of time, I am confused. I am very confused of all the things that I want to do, that I want to happen in my life. But t...