watt
what is the reason behind not dying early? share some pls because i dont have any anymore. hehe
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di ka sure
hahahahaha its weird you know when you've tried opening up again and here you are again. Start protecting yourself please. Stop. It gets heavier and heavier each time. Deserve ko ba yun? Baka nga oo. Baka nga masama ako, di lang ako aware.
What now?
Today I feel like I want to do so many things, I want to search for the lost energy, drive and motivation to do things I used to love. Sometimes, I kept trying to write even thoughh it seems vague. I wanna feel lost in places I am not familiar, not sure if I want to be found but I guess I crave for the feeling that I will be the one to find my way out. Just exploring, and enjoying my time. But nahh, right now, I'll just sit here, do random walks looking randomly at the sky wondring what I would do someday or maybe in random days where I will have that urge to do something more than the usual routine. Okay, thanks for breathing today self. I gotchu gurl!!
Trying
Trying to stay alive and searching for more reasons to stay alive. Not sure of what I mean with alive if its just breathing or the feeling of being really alive. But today feels suffocating, i still feel like its a good day to just die and leave everything behind. I just don't know how yet and still have that little hope that maybe soon will be okay also.
Tired
Today i feel like dying, like not entirely dying. Cant explain but i just want to let go of everything - my thoughts and my self. im tired of handling myself, it feels heavy, always.
Trying Hard to be an Independent Biatch!!!!
Yes, countless times, I have always tried hard to be independent. I may say it can be considered as forced training to be independent at times because of the situations I have. Most of the time I complain, complain to myself. Do stuffs like this, talk it out with myself just to let all those emotions burst out. How can we say life is unfair? Well I guess, there is no certain criteria where life would really be considered as fair. At the end of the day, you live where you are deciding what to do on how to re-route or change your situation to some stuffs you are eyeing on to be in the future. It was always a continuous battle with my mind on how to be better, on how to improve, on what to do just to keep going and living. Felt countless times that I am alone during my deepest and lowest moments but forced myself to see things in another light, it is an endless reminder to myself that there are still other things that I must be thankful for, to find those little itsy bitsy things to consi...