WONDERS of HAZELNUT. ♥

To my guardian angel, Its been more than a decade of not being with you, and you, celebrating your day in heaven. I still celebrate your existence in my life and remember you so many times. I wrote a lot of letters for you and I'm sorry a lot of it talks about struggles and surviving but you kept me going. So today, I look back again on our memories that continues to guide me to want to be a better person because I saw you try and try to become a bigger person. Always helping. Always loving. Happy birthday in heaven Tita. Your prayers for me are still here, because I am still here. I went to church this morning, Tita, like every other sunday. May nakatabi ako na lola and her apo and I remembered you and how we were like that before, napangiti nalang ako when I heard the apo say na punta daw sila mamaya sa playground sa plaza. And yes that was me also, na magswiswing for 5-10 mins bago umuwi + jollibee with kiddie meals hahahha kaya mas gusto ko dati sa Cathedral nagsisimba com...

I am here to say I'm happy you're trying, you're taking your healing seriously. And it's okay to choose yourself multiple times. If you lost people in the middle of searching for your peace, it will be okay. It may hurt now, I know you miss them so much. I know how much you value your relationship and how toxic your attachment issue can be. But please know, there's nothing wrong with feeling deeply for people you like. And I know there's something wrong with you isolating yourself, but slowly, you will get better at handling your relationship whether it be friends or family. You will be okay. I'm proud of how you're trying to be aware of your emotions. Takes time, so be gentle and patient with yourself. We're done with midterms, and you finished it without breaking down. And whatever your score may be, let this be something to push you more and prepare more. Pray, okay? For courage and peace. Someday, it won't be heavy anymore. And I'll be ...

Hello love, PAPAPSA KA!!! Yes, i came here just to say that because I trust in you, with all the 28 yrs old younger version of you, we trust in you. And regardless of whatever is happening around you, I will always root for you. From yourself, love, hezelnut chocnut nabaliw na palagi. K bye. Papasa ka!