Hello Love,
Tomorrow is one of those big moments day, and they told us to write a letter to ourselves that one day we can always look back, and yes that's you, you always love looking back to what happened to you. And I bet you should start learning to let go as well, right? We have been doing this for so many times already, writing random stuffs everytime you go through something or whenever something is bothering you and you just need to let it go.
I would like to remind you that last night you cried so much, I don't even know how it happened, how it started. I just know that there are so many emotions running in your mind, in your heart right now. You also cried because you felt madudurog na yung utak mo sa sobrang sakit, siz you felt the pulsations in your temporal lobe, sabi mo pa nga is this my pterion. At baka maganeurysm ka bigla sa sobra stress. Charot. Si OA. Pinapatawa lang kita kasi puno ka ng kalokohan. You and and the love you have for your friends was tested also durinng this season and even until now that you're writing this. You kept asking yourself what's wrong with you. But love, believe me, you will be okay. As long as you keep that heart of yours wherein you keep telling it to stay kind, and avoid thinking negative things about the people you love. You will be okay. Choose the battles you put into your mind. Let go and let God.
This season also tested the love you have for your family and just want to share here also how much you felt bad about your mmm not supporting you, but just that one call you got this morning and him wishing you luck. I will never forget that and yes, my heart will always be soft for him. I will keep on praying that one day, I would be able to let go of everything that's been weighing me down and my relationship with him. And gurl, you no need to worry because God truly provides, you just need to trust and surrender. And for the record, yes I love my parents so much, no matter how imperfect we are. I will always choose to love them, no matter how many times I cry so hard because of them. I will always choose them.
So now, relax, okay? God put this all in your heart for a reason. You are here for a reason. Not only to make yourself happy, but for the kids you've always wanted to be with and help. In any way. Hey, I also told God awhile ago, I'm gonna try to be a pediatrician, go back here and write again if ever you became one or whatever He put as desires of your heart.
04/18/2024
Hi love, I never got the chance to post this during the exam period because it was so messy. I was so messy. Cried so much, cried a lot, as an iyakin gurly. And told Celine, how my eyes felt like gripo. Di matigil. Parang sirang gripo. Di nauubusan. And right now even after the exam, sometimes it still feels the same. We didn't make it love, but right now I'm having the courage to finally come back here and finish what I've started. We will continue trying. I have so many dilemma right now, but I have been praying for the decisions I will be making. Because I'm tired, tired of showing everyone that I'm okay but I'm barely making things work. Maybe if I keep telling myself I'm okay, eventually I will be okay. Goodnight love, let's keep going, okay? Good luck on your Pedya Kamp!! Come back and write to me again soon about what happens.
Love, hezelnut coconut
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