Random encouragement letter to myself

I know right now Gabby, you're confused. Yeah, I know what my mind is about to say, I AM ALWAYS CONFUSED.  BUT I am doing this to help myself vent out,

so here we go,

Dear self,

I know that your dream right now, your goal is to be a future doctor and yet you feel so confused if this goal is just meant to be a dream, something that you think is never really gonna happen in real life. You are full of doubts, you overthink things, you feel like you aren't enough. Well real talk, Gabby, I think you're not giving it your all. Whatever you're thinking about yourself, it is not good, it is not your right to give yourself a limit to what you think you can do. I know deep deep inside you, you are praying, you are hoping that God has something in store of you. Of course Gabby, God has so much for you, but it is up to you girl, how are you gonna manage yourself? Will you let God turn you to something He had plan you to be or will you let your doubts, your thoughts, your negative behavior get ahead of you?

Whenever you think you want to give up, please go back, always go back to the reason why you started this. Cliche as it may sound, yes you are dreaming of a hard specialization but you started this because you want to help more kids right? You've seen so much, you've felt so much. And you know how hard things may be for people, for kids, for families who can't afford to see doctors. You've seen that there's more things they can do, "if only." You may not be able to help a lot in the future, but you will be able to help someone. Someone is better than nothing, okay?

Right now, please never ever get tired of pulling yourself up. Stop oversleeping, stop procrastinating, do what you must do and can do. Because in the end, your goal is not only to be a doctor, not only to save lives but to CHANGE LIVES, you have to be more than what a doctor can just do, who only heals, be a nice and kind doctor. You can do whatever you think you can do, more than what you can imagine you are capable of. Focus and most importantly, discipline yourself. Love yourself in the process, love what you are trying to do. Be in the present, so that you can achieve whatever you are wanting to happen. Don't let other's opinion of you or pressure get ahead of you, You are you, take control of what you are gonna do and pray for it for guidance. Because it is nothing if its only you and only for you.

You are gonna be okay. Keep going, you are a warrior. Keep getting up.

With so much love,

yourself