happy birthday my favorite angel!!!

hello Tita, its been awhile writing down to you but it's me again asking your help to help my heart be more kind and grateful and to understand some things that happened to me and just accept it. why do i even have to start my message with this hahaha nakita ko kasi post nila tita that their still okay, and it makes me sad but somehow i still want them to be happy so i hope someday someday i find my way to just becoming at peace with what happened with our friendship. i'm trying to be at peace with the thought of having them as friends for just a phase of my life and just let go of the bad memories.
nawala yung momentum Tita, but im also here to share the good news that im almost close to a year of practicing my licensed as a doctor, still comtemplating on what specialty but praying to always have that heart that wants to help and understand her patients pero minsan yung confidence ko, still working on it. still always convincing myself to study more for my patients, that i made it this far for a reason! its hard to being a first generational doctor, not knowing what to do, no one to guide you pero ang mindset ko nalang ay to enjoy the process, and learn along the process! kakayanin tita, prayed for this with you, made it on the other side with your guidance din kaya kakayanin!!
hanggang dito muna Tita, duty ako bukas. I miss you and i love yooou, always!! Love, hizil

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