Inevitable pain

I don't know why I feel very disappointed with what he did. I maybe had assumed some things again in the wrong way. Maybe there is really something very special going on between them that nobody is aware of. I am just a nobody in his eyes. Why does my doubts always come across my way? Maybe I must keep on guarding myself. Maybe I must try to maintain my standard. Maybe it was never really wrong to be very cautious with every people that you meet. Maybe its okay that when I try to like someone, I must not stop on reminding myself that the right time I have prepared for myself is not now. I am in pain and maybe its natural. Maybe this are the things that I need to equip and prepare myself for what is yet to come. Maybe I have to forget about what I feel. Ignore ignore ignore. Its a weakness I must avoid, it has a power to destroy me. So yeah, get out of my life. Avoid. Ignore. This is the pain I know I can handle though it is inevitable.