hello love

you are now another year older, can't remember when did i start calling myself love, but it is to remind myself that whatever is going on, i need to love myself, i need to learn to love myself and be there for her because i know for the longest time that i have been doing so many things to sabotage her happiness, but whatever that is i hope you learn from those things, hizil.

i would like to write a letter to you love, so here goes nothing.

hi love,

despite the people that left you and the people you choose to let go, i know you're choosing to dwell on kind thoughts that there are a lot of people beside you that loves yoou genuinely. Despite the pain and betrayal, you're choosing to be kind, i know how much you're praying to have the courage to forgive and let go because you know how heavy it feels to keep it all inside you. I know you're still keeping so much pain inside you. One step at a time, let it go.

you have been through a lot and im here to say that im proud of you, you're almost done with your internship, and you will also get that license! humble yourself please and continue to help more people in the future and while doing that don't forget to take care of yourself. i know there are a lot of anxieties but you're getting by everyday, continue to whisper to yourself, "it's okay" hahahahah even though its not. but if it helps, say it anyway, okay? it is okay, okay lang yan.

you have a lot of plans right now, it is too overwhelming but better with plans than none, right? i hope there would come a time that when you're reading this you would smile and laugh at this silliness, because you already know how to swim, dive, drive. (I hope you get that wish to jump at canyoneering hahahaha) You have already travelled so much. You are already a pediatrician. I hope you also have a family of your own, if not, be a family to all the kids out there love. You have so much love and happiness to share. I hope there would come a time that your soul fully heals from all those pain and you begin to trust someone again. Don't let the bad things dwell on you so much, learn from it. Use those things to be a better person.

The world is beautiful. Be happy and be free. It is okay that you're lost right now but everyday i will continue to find what can make you happy, love! I am always here for you. Happy birthday!

Love, hizil. 07/01/2024